Therapy

So here I am bering my soul on this 'information super highway.'

Here goes:

I go to a counselor every other week or so to help me connect the dots of my past, present and future. We have mostly talked about how my past experiences and my current perceptions go hand in hand with how I deal with the everyday. I know that we all see the world through our limited expereince, intellect, philosophy, theology, spirituallity, world view, affuence, etc. I experience the world emotionally as well. I get all tied up in feelings. To some degree, my feelings define me more than anything. Yesterday at our Vibrant Leadership meeting one of the people said that he liked when I get passionate about things. I thought about that and I like it when I get passionate about things as well.
Back to therapy:
See I used to get passionate about most things when I was young. I remember laughing more than I do now, being a class clown and all. I used to be much more spontanious and free spirited... now I tend to 'poop' on everything. Not literally of course but figuratively I downgrade the highs and prepare for the lows. I kinda live in a perpetual state of somber, verging on sullen. Needless to say I feel as though I came by this somber life perspective naturally. No matter how I came by it... I'd like my perspective to change. I'm on a journey to figure out what my negative outlook on life 'works' for me. I need to change my perspective on even how I look at my negativity... from 'shitting on eveything' to being 'careful or cautious.' about things. I guess it's a good beginning. I'm hopeful on where we go from here!

Grace and peace,

CV Hartline